Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Kalaghoda

A charming nip in the air and the chilly breeze made the perfect setting for the most awaited cultural fest of the year – Kalaghoda – the week when Mumbai dons many vibrant colors depicting cultures, ethnicities, literature, art and talent. It is an event that I wouldn’t like missing - so this time come mid February and I was off to ‘town’ the part of Mumbai that still retains the old world charm.

Kalaghoda is a wistful little neighborhood dotted with old stone Victorian edifices, ageless art galleries, old fashioned bistros and traditional shops. Right beside the main quadrangle is the celebrated Jahangir Art Gallery. Many an artist have displayed delightful pieces of art on this esteemed platform – some admirable and some totally indecipherable for a layman like me!

Bang opposite is the David Sasoon Library – a reading library laid out in stone during the Victorian era standing tall having witnessed more than a century of transformation from Bombay to Mumbai. This time the brick walls facing each other at the library’s corridor entrance were lined up with a rare newspaper collection by Abhijit Sahasrabuddhe who had this unusual idea of collecting newspapers of several languages and dialects published across India since the year 1998! What a remarkable penchant!!! As one walks through the corridor, it opens up into a charming little garden. One sees trees gently swaying in the breeze, freshly mowed grass leading upto a tiny podium in twinkling lights of dusk – cutting out a perfect picture for a soulful literary reading. Last year it hosted the graceful Shaukat Azmi, accompanied by her actress daughter Shabana Azmi reading touching passages from her everlasting biographical love story ‘Kaifi & I’. This year the renowned poetess Shomshuklla Das shared some arresting reflections through her verses on people, life & relationships.

The main square of Kalaghoda was buzzing with people and activities around sundown. Office goers decided to stop by after a hard day of work. Art-lovers in colourful bohemian outfits wearing big neckpieces and chunky jewellery also happily intermingled with the throngs of people. Then there were SOBO aunties fluttering around like social butterflies. And ofcourse the very touristy people like us – who inspite of being Mumbai-ites decided to click every unusual piece of art or strike up mad poses! It was enchanting to see the melting pot of budding talent that this platform had to offer – the life-size pyramid made of cutting chai glasses, maze of Bisleri bottles, huge wooden horses, recycled lanterns emitting an aura of the cultural world while giving subtle social messages of ‘save the earth’, ‘eat healthy’, etc.

There were vendors from all across the country selling their ware. It gave a feel of a ‘souk’ in Dubai or probably my imagination of what ‘bazaars’ in Hyderabad in olden times would have looked like! Royal silk sarees of Kochi, cutwork bedsheets and decorative wall hangings of Jodhpur, classy handbags from Haryana, scarves and shawls of Kahmir amongst others. Also amidst this artistic diversity were quaint little stores selling ‘liquor bottle lamps’ and ‘plumbing material vases’ and other such décor, home art and gift articles sprawled across the never-ending street. At the open air amphitheatre there were alluring dance performances such as Kathak, Odissi, Bhangra, Ghummar, jive, salsa and much more! Kalaghoda was a perfect arena for showcasing enthralling country melodies, accompanied by captivating shows that traversed through the untapped interiors of India.

We also happened to enter a make-shift studio which had the most vibrant and multihued backdrops and an fascinating collection of props such as crazy colorful wigs, over-sized wayfarers and slates where one could write messages in chalk and pose for pictures! So they would capture candid pictures of you with your family/friends and voila – within 10 minutes give you a print out of all the fun moments! What an amazing idea to create, freeze and frame memories!! : ))

While we started our evening with chana chor garam and blueberry cheesecake icecream, we ended it at Soam. For the uninitiated, it is a petite food joint opposite Babulnath temple serving authentic Gujarati and Maharastrian cuisine. You must try the spinach-cheese samosas, the soft rice pankhis that simply melt in the mouth and ofcourse the mouth-watering thalipeeth pitla alongwith a glass of guava/mango panna. As we walked out of Soam, an icy cold breeze blew from the sea at Chowpatty marking it as the coldest night of Mumbai in many years! Only we knew how mesmerized and snug we felt that night, inspite of the ‘cold’ Mumbai climate, because we spent a magical evening that warmed the very cockles of our hearts!

Thursday, March 31, 2011

You!

I want to be the sky
In which your desires can fly!
I want to be the wind...
On which your thoughts can sing.

I want to be the sea,
In which your tears can drown..!
I want to be the eraser...
That can wipe away your frown.

I want to be the mountain,
And inspire you to wonder.....
I want to be the faith...
And enable you to surrender!!

I want to be the space.....
In which your dreams are born,
I want to be the well,
From which your inspirations, are drawn!!

I want to be the old... and I also want to be the new,
And I realize all these are...
Just different definitions of You!!

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Trains, Life & etc.

New day...new year...new beginnings.Or so they say. Well I meant to write this post yesterday - it being the last of 2010...but somehow never got around to writing it then. So here I am...on a momentous day --- 1/1/11....ruing on and writing about trains and train journeys....

Yesterday evening I got to travel by Mumbai local after a real long time. Once upon a time I was a regular. Suddenly all memories - good and bad came flashing back to me and I got into a nostalgic mood about what this decade meant to me...what it brought for me...and what it took away from me. Somehow I managed to use 'train' as a metephor for 'my journey of life' and hence everything I spill out in this post in someway related to trains and journeys.

Why write about journeys, you ask? We are all together in a journey. Friendships & relationships are made in journeys. We laugh & cry in journeys. We fight & unite in journeys. We love & lose in journeys. One can choose to be alone in a journey. One can watch trains go past on their journeys. All that is left in the end is the journey. The JOURNEY is EVERYTHING.

Ten years ago I was studying in 12th Standard. I remember I was struggling with French tuitions, event management classes, basic computer courses at NIIT, early morning Accounts classes at Bhatia and college lectures!!! Yes...I used to religiously attend college lectures..even on Saturdays...for fear that my college had 75% attendance record and I did not want to be a blacklisted student. So at this tender age of 17...I thought I had a lot on my platter and so much running about to do to prove to be an all-rounder. I was proud that I could multi-task well, tensed about how I will crack 12th boards, followed cute boys to the canteen, took long walks from college to home with friends and tried to figure out how to get rid of my teenage passion pimples. Life was so busy...and I thought it couldnt get tougher. Interestingly, my only train journey back then was from Vileparle to Andheri (3 minutes) at 7am in the morning and I used to stand on the footboard...feel the fresh morning air....and listen to bickering aunties in ladies compartment and smirk foolishly. Train journeys added colour to my daily dose of entertainment.

Now - 10 years, 3 job changes, MBA abroad and several criss-crossed relationships later - I am a new person. I have grown...I have matured (or so I think) and I have entered the unpleasant side of 20's. The experience that I have under my belt right now...both on personal and professional front - has made me calmer and confused at the same time. Train has moved far ahead from its starting point but destination is still further away. Maybe it is not even half way to its destination. Searching for new lands...gushing through free countryside...small towns and big cities....short halts and long waits....it has been a journey that I can NEVER forget!!!

So many times this trudging lil train has faced winding roads...which have been difficult to maneuvre. But then...having such wonderful loved ones as its engine....the navigation gets simpler. There have been times when just like the train...I have changed tracks....taken the road less travelled. Sometimes I have unravelled enchanting mysteries about myself and other times I have committed grave mistakes which I have paid heavy prices for. I have discovered something so ethereal and mystical about this journey and every such off-track experience has helped me in someway or another. Either an escapade has revealed a critical weakness of my personality/behaviour or has enabled me to add a new feather to my cap of strengths. I can remember equal number of times when devil horns have grown around me and I have come face to face with the villan within me. And then again...sometimes a wonderful luminous angelic halo surrounds my head and helps make me a better person. So life has been all about blacks and whites. It has been grey. Good and bad experiences have shaped up my life. Similarly sugar & spice have given me the right blend. So thats who I am. Or have come to become.

The train of my life has had to face several bridges and encounter crossroads and railway crossings. On the other side of the bridge lies the road ahead...but the bridge is built over a tumultous sea or a shuddering river. There is always this fear of encountering bizzare situations where a bridge breaks. It has happened before every exam or its subsequent result. Before each job interview, personal interview, test or examination. A fear that grips the insides of my intenstines and leaves me queasy and restless. But once I come to the bridge...I do make an attempt to crossover to discover the realm on the other side of the chasm. And with crossing every bridge or railway barricade...I have gained the confidence to move ahead in life. Bridges are an absolute essential to traverse the gap between where we lie now to the other side of the world where our future lies.

I guess what I am trying to say with the help of this post is that...while my train of life trudges along the path of discovery powered by the engine of love and togetherness and coupled with compartments of 'career', 'dreams' and 'aspirations'....several people hop on to it and hop off. Some are just fleeting visits and some leave everlasting impressions. Some come for a small season...while others stay on forever. The train stops at different stations....teeny weeny towns and big junctions. Each halt comes with its own fragrance and meaning. Sometimes the train is just raring to go after a long halt...and there have also been instances where leaving a station behind has left a permanent void in the heart. But the train moves on....rain or shine....it gets along with its journey to find a better world and a better future.

Like a famous Kishore Kumar song goes....' Gaadi bula rahi hai....seeti bajaa rahi hai....chalna hi zindagi hai...chalti hi jaa rahi hai....'

Happy 2011 everyone...may the year bring its best for all of us! :)

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Strange feeling...

I have this strange feeling today. It’s like being in a dark room with no one around. It’s not breezy nor is it suffocating. It’s just a huge vaccuum, noiseless, motionless. I am being suspended in mid air but there are no visible strings attached. There is no support and nothing to lean on to. The only thing that I can hold on to is fear. A fear that is parasitic and selfish. It cares only to destroy me, grip me and take everything that I have.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

My Travel Log – Roadtrip Unplugged (June 25 2010 to July 07, 2010)

We all have DREAMS. And some of them are larger than life. I had a dream of visiting Kashmir since the time I marked it in my Geography maps in school and since the time I heard the name of this place. I had been perennially complaining to my folks about not taking me on the Kashmir trip (ermm…it’s a different thing that I did not exist when they went there) and I finally got my chance in June 2010 after 10 years of dreaming, planning, plotting and pondering!!!!

When my dearest friend Santosh told me about his plan for a roadtrip to Ladakh and Kashmir in early January, I jumped at the idea. Ladakh was a fairly recent addition to my ‘must go trips’ and was harboring a thought of clubbing that with my Kashmir visit since 4 years now. The scenic portrayal of 3 Idiots climax just triggered the excitement to make it there. After grueling sessions of planning and re-planning and cancelling of trip itineraries and permissions over Feb to June, I was finally headed to my dream and destination…all packed…bag and baggage. Although I knew I would be back to reality in 12 days, somehow the only song that I kept humming ‘I’m leaving on a jetplane. Don't know when I will be back again…’ as I zoomed my way towards paradise like Alice in Wonderland! The next 12 days formed an eclectic mix with new friends, exotic locations, deserts, lakes, barrage of pictures and so much more!!

Characterization:
Shaily
(me, child-locked chocolate lover, contagious laugh-o-holic, proud Mumbai-ite, yapper)
Santosh/Santa (driver, cinematographer, complete entertainer, poser, bad hindi speaker, trip planner)
Shuaib (shaayar, coolie, center fresh provider, muscle man, awesome lyricist but bad singer)
Sahana/Saha (photographer, poser, scapegoat for almost all jokes)
Ghanashyam/Ghana (cash provider, man of few words, graviera looker, failed singing attempter)
Kishore (driver, singer, ………..) – feel free to add!
Giri (scandalized passenger, ……….) – feel free to add!
Prasanna (avid photographer, compulsive blogger, ……….) – feel free to add!
Srilaxmi/Sri (the silent one, smiling face, …………) – feel free to add!
Nandini and Vani (…………..) feel free to add!

Places we visited: Delhi, Manali, Keylong, Bharatpur, Leh, Lamayaru, Drass, Srinagar

Other Places/Locations/Destinations where we had memories as we passed by: Chandigarh, Rohtang, Baralachla Pass, Sarchu, Tanglangla Pass, Rumste, Leh, Khardungla Pass, Changla Pass, Pangong Lake, Kargil, Sonmarg, Wular Lake, Dal Lake, Fotula Pass, Dashir Lake, Gatta Loops, Darcha, Mulbek village, Alchi Village, Morey Plains. (Feel free to add anything that I have missed...!)

Day 1 (June 25 midnight to June 26 2010): Adventure married us on the first day of our trip as we drove 550 kms to Manali from Delhi in the death of the night. After almost 20 hours on the road through Kalka, Chandigarh, Ambala & Kullu, we finally made it to a cosy little guest house on the banks of the gushing river Beas as Manali welcomed us with chilly breeze. Did not like the hill station much – it was overcrowded and over hyped with traffic jams worse than Mumbai. Glad we were just put up there for the night and managed to find accommodation away from the main market!

Day 2 (June 27 2010): An early start next morning marked the beginning of our ascent to the favourite tourist destination - Rohtang Pass. Among rocky roads and recently cleared landslides, our brave drivers gallantly made it to the over-hyped Rohtang Pass in time for late lunch. The snow was soot coloured and Eskimo like humans with thick furry overcoats swarmed the place like bees. Umm..it was surely cold and breezy but was definitely not Alaska…these people surely looked queer!! Anyway…we quickly got back on the road and beyond Rohtang the route got prettier and the air thinner.

Our destination that evening was Keylong, a tiny little hillstation nestled in the northern most part of Himachal Pradesh. Most people on their way to Leh halted there for the night. The town was in a lazy slumber all through the day and we could view snow capped Himalayas and unexplored greenery from every little nook and corner. That’s when phone went out of network coverage – strangely such a welcome delight! That’s the first time I felt as if…the world did not know which corner I am in...and I felt untraceable and strangely proud about it! ;-)

Day 3 (June 28 2010): From Keylong to Sarchu was one hell of a journey! We went through the winding Zingzingbar and the dreamy Baralachla Pass. Snow on either side of the narrow road, frozen lakes, magnanimous glaciers, melting iciles and cutout landscapes made our drive through the golden sunset breathtaking. The Earth looked like a newlywed bride adorned with impeccable white snow all over. A sight so pure and yet so fulfilling is rare. Many a movies have been shot there since it is an ideal location for directors like Yash Chopra who want an actor like SRK in his pullover to romance a Kajol or Rani or Juhi dancing in thin chiffon sarees amongst the snow-capped peaks of an untouched location! From the latest lot, I am sure Jab We Met was shot here :)

We did not make it to Sarchu by end of the next day (as we had planned). Too many landslides and flooded roads made the journey slow and draining. Someone told us…'Why don’t you stop over at Bharatpur city for the night? Sarchu is about 35 kms away from here..but its 7:30pm and the road ahead is worse. You might get stuck.’ Good suggestion. So we stop at this place which has a bunch of about 10-12 tents in the middle of nowhere, for some sustenance and one of us asks the kind tent fellow ‘Bhaiya Bharatpur city kitna durr hai…raat ko wahi par rukna hai’. The guy looks at us with twinkling eyes and mocking smile ‘Yehi Bharatpur city hai sahab!!!!!!!!!’ WOAH….when did 10-12 thin tents become an entire city? We were in for more shock.

Snow everywhere, strong winds blowing, Maggi for dinner and Old Monk rum to give us company and warmth. The tents rented out beds for 100 bucks per night with thick warm blankets and for lack of better options, that became our night halt. At about 11pm, the electricity and hot coals warmed by solar power went off and we were left in a cold, desolate, super-windy and shivering state. A couple of us suffered from hypothermia, some got high on alcohol as a bid to survive and the rest of us huddled up under a bunch of thick blankets trying to sleep. Santosh got up like a brave guy in the middle of the night, to fetch his thin favourite bedsheet and when his fingers touched the ice-cold cloth he immediately broke into a weird shivering dance and screamed for his dear life! Although we were in a sorry state, we all burst out laughing at his antics that added colour to our night.

Somewhere around 2am, I realized I could not breathe and was too cold to think straight. The wind was creepily blowing and the blankets did not help me, so I groggily stepped out of the tent and ran to our car. Realized that 2 of our friends Sahana and Shuaib had already occupied the backseat and were resting peacefully with the car heater on. So our small bunch spent the night in the warm confines of the car until the brave Santosh came and woke us up at 6am!! So Bharatpur went down in the history of our trip as the coldest nights (was -5 degress to say the least!) and the most difficult and adventurous nights ever. Every other night thereafter was compared on the ‘Bharatpur yardstick’ and thankfully, no other night outshone Bharatpur! :)

Day 4 (June 29 2010): The next morning our route took us through more tents at Sarchu, rocky roads at Darcha, naturally eroded winding roads of Gatta Loops, an uphill drive to Nakeela Pass (15547 feet) and Lachulungla Pass (16616 feet), Tanglangla Pass (17582 feet) and down the dusty Morey Plains. The scenery completely changed. We had entered Jammu & Kashmir now and barren mountains and vast deserts welcomed us. But it was a pretty sight indeed as a lot of winter snow had not melted so we saw a riot of colours ranging from whites to browns to yellows to greens to blues as the snow, roads, mountains and sky fought for our attention! The roads were so clean and well maintained, that we could picnic on the middle of the Manali-Leh highway, and we did just that, literally!! The song that kept coming back to my mind was… 'Hum Jo Chalne Lage…Chalne lage yeh raaste…manzil se behtar lagne lage hai yeh raaste…!' Somewhere on the way…our car bumper gave away and had to be tied onto the carrier of the other car with us. Our Corolla now resembled a backless human being!!

So after 48 hours on the road and without bathing…we managed to complete our tumultuous drive to the city of Leh, which welcomed us like an oasis in the midst of the desert. The city and its feel was so international with beautiful breeze and fine roads to give us company. We found a old-fashioned guest house set in the picturesque backdrop of the mighty snow capped Himalayas. A traditional Ladakhi family looked after this guest house and they had their own farm which grew splendid big roses of all colours. They also had potato, carrot and other vegetables grown on their farm, so we were treated to home cooked food during our stay!

Day 5 (June 30 2010): A bright morning dawned on Day 5 of our trip as I peeped out of my room window and the heavens welcomed me. Agar duniya mein koi jannat hai…toh yahin hai…yahin hai...yahin hai! :) After a sumptuous home made breakfast of ladakhi bread, puri bhaji, omlettes and freshly removed milk from the inhouse cows, we were ready to explore. Our first stop was the Shanti Stupa that overlooked the city of Leh. A lonely white structure juxtaposed against vibrant coloured flags adorned the city skyline. Leh, being dominated by Tibetian culture and Buddhism, had prayer shelters, gompas, monasteries and such stupas at several places.
Then we made our journey to Khardungla Pass, the second highest pass in the world at 18380 feet and the highest motorable road in the world! Hats off to our driving company – Santosh and Kishor who made those tough high rise roads look so manageable and safe!! So Khardungla Pass was our ‘highest point’ in the trip and also the passageway to other such adventurous destinations such as sand dune dominated Nubra Valley! We could not feel our own skin and we were struggling to breathe. Thank God for the hot sweet black coffee and steaming Maggi that we got on Khardungla Top. This had become our staple food on the trip.

On our way back to Leh city, we stopped by at the Leh Palace. Not exactly as royal as Jaipur palace nor as ornamental and intricate as the Mysore Palace but unique in its own way. Probably the oldest structure in the city, this castle like palace gave an aerial snapshot of the greenery in the midst of barren land with tiny houses that dotted the vicinity. It served as an excellent location for a photoshoot as we blended the old world charm with the rocky interface, fading light and an enthusiastic photographer to shoot a range of expressions from ‘graveria looks’ to ‘where am I looking poses’ to ‘spontaneous and natural laughter moments’ which were very awesomely captured in our individual profile picture portfolios! The evening ended with a fantastic Tibetian candle-lit dinner at a place called TIBETIAN KITCHEN. Ghana and I experimented with Veg. Thukpa soup which gave us delight and warmth after the chills of Khardungla. That coupled with veg momos and a lot of other food and several glasses of fresh lime soda were conveniently savoured by us 4 - Santosh, Giri, Ghana and me!

Day 6 (July 01 2010): Our 11th member on the trip Prasanna graced us with his esteemed presence by joining us in Leh early in the morning! We began our journey nice and early at ermm…10am :P after a sumptuous breakfast. We were on our way to the world renowned Pangong Lake which featured in the movie 3 Idiots. It is among the largest salt water lakes in North India and stretches across the Indian border to China. We crossed Changla Pass where there was a military camp and a bunch of soldiers who made us feel proud by sharing their grueling war stories! As we descended onto a winding road on the other side of the pass, it was surrounded by rock structures and desert sand, and it felt like Arizona! We finally made our way to our tent accommodation at Pangong which was about 3 kms away from the last village on the Indo-China border. The vast expanse of Pangong Lake spread across 2 nations with about 1/3 present in India and 2/3rds in China. I was amazed by the sheer size of the water body and I wished I had an aerial view to the majestic lake.

Splendid breeze and friendly tents beckoned to us as our starved lot fed on chai and hot food. We were very proud of our custom made ‘ROADTRIP UNPLUGGED’ t-shirts, personalized with our favourite names and numbers and many a mad poses filled up our photo-crazy day. As we sat by the lake and watched the twilight set in, the winds became biting cold and chilly. Our tents which were located a few steps away looked warm and inviting. It was quite an experience to camp in the Northern most corner of India…so close to nature and its beauty and so far away from civilization and networking. It is the kind of unwinding and peace that can rejenuvate any physical being and feed any starved soul. Nature could not have given us better company than this. It was the perfect night as we all drifted into soothing sleep.

Day 7 (July 02 2010): Summer mornings in the mountains are fairly early whereas it gets dark only at about 8pm. So we were greeted by a bright new day and rising sun at 5:30am the next morning. Could not have missed the sunrise at the lake for the world! As the sun rose behind the mountains and its early rays hit the snow-capped peaks and glittered in glee, the lake awoke to a riot of colours. The landscape was so picture perfect that it reminded me of those Drawing class pictures which each of us must have drawn atleast once in their lives. Mountains, sunrise, water, grass, trees and a bunch of happy humans – the perfect scenery! Have hardly ever seen a morning so pure and serene. As most of us stared and posed against the vibrant blue-green hues that pristine water of Pangong offered in every ripple, 3 brave men decided to make their experience memorable by taking the holy dip in the icy cold waters of the lake! So our 3 idiots – Santosh, Shuaib and Kishore gave a shivering performance on ‘Ek Garam chai ki pyaali ho…koi usko pilaane wali ho!’ Their adventure and dance were sure to give Salmaan Khan a run for his money ;-)

A long song-a-thon session followed where each of us sang Kannada, Hindi and English songs and made public display of our talent, and in some cases like mine, the lack of it! So while we found some fantastic singers in Kishore, Giri, Vani and Nandini , I sang like a torn drum, Santosh sang like he was on gunpoint, Shuaib sang as though the world has ended and Ghana recited song like a poem! So a mix bunch of poets, lyricists, singers, wannabe singers, shaayars and bathroom singers added to the melting pot of musical memories and unlimited laughter as we began our journey back to Leh city.

Day 8 (July 03 2010): As Day 8 approached, we bid farewell to the stately mountains, the untouched greenery, our guesthouse manager’s daughter Amu, our favourite joint Tibetian kitchen, the overpriced handicraft shops and every little thing that made up the city of Leh. Never did we think, that the same peaceful town would awaken to a rude shock just 1 month after we left it. I really hope that the city regains its normalcy and soul soon. There is hope in the heart and a promise in the mind to revisit and reminisce about the Leh that was.
This day, we started our journey on the Leh-Srinagar highway and the smoother part of our journey. This was maintained by the Indian Army and the main road of operation, communication and transport so spotting army bunkers and trucks on the way became a regular feature. We stopped at the Magnetic Hill, turned off the car ignition and parked it in the box marked on the road in neutral gear. The car moved ahead on its own and it was a thrill to watch the peculiar ways of nature! After witnessing a fine river confluence of two beautiful rivers – Indus and Zanskar merging 2 distinct colours into a single river, we headed to the Alchi Murals for lunch. This place had a historical and religious significance, since it had some wall murals painted thousands of years ago and a little monastery called the Alchi Gonpa. We prayed by rolling the Buddhist prayer gongs all through the monastery and realized that spirituality is omnipresent, whatever the religion!

That evening, we stopped at Lamayaru, which has been my personal favourite location in the entire trip! This is where I discovered the most awesome ginger-lemon-honey tea ever! The Lamayaru monastery and the sleepy town with its sacred air could calm all restless nerves. The natural beauty of the yellow daisy fields against the backdrop of a starry sky coupled with the holy environment of that location left me charmed and mesmerized. Still when I shut my eyes and think of the trip, this scenery flashes in my mind and transports me to another world. I found mystic silence and peace in this place and its etched a special position in my very existence.

Day 9 (July 04 2010): As we embarked on the Leh-Srinagar highway, our onward destinations started becoming less rocky and more green with millions of beautiful streams and rivers emerging from hills and disappearing into the winding river Drass that ran its course through Kargil and Drass. Kargil was an ugly town, its war significance apart, there was not much to see or do there. I personally found it to be pretty shady with limited lodging and boarding options and non-existent backdrops. I was glad that we did not have to stay there the night and we moved on to Drass.

Just before we reached Drass, we visited Operation Vijay, the war memorial set up to honour the soldiers that fought the tough war of Kargil in 1999 and some brave shaheed jawans and captains who gave up their lives at the border. Its strange how when you visit such locations, it sends chills down your spine and you instantly feel very patriotic and proud of such strong men guarding your nation. I got the same unexplainable feeling…wish I had it when I was sitting in the warm confines of my home and unassumingly watching the war on television.

We got an opportunity to visit a gallery of war memoirs and talk to some soldiers on duty. They were so staunch and brave even when they recollected the events of the war. I cheekily stole a glance towards one brave jawan and asked ‘aapko darr nahi lagta?’ to which he gave a broad reassuring smile and said ‘hum darr jayenge toh aap logon ka khayaal kaun rakhega!’ So true. We heard about their harsh winter postings at Siachen and Khardungla, their shelling experiences at mountain peaks and were rendered speechless by their will to win! :) Drass Memorial stood at a place where there was heavy shelling in 1999 and had Tololing, Tiger Hill and all important reclaimed LOC points to its left and right. Every hill you looked at around you, was recaptured and fought over. A touching song by Lataji, that kept coming back to me then, was ‘Ae mere watan ke logon…zara aakhon mein bhar lo paani, jo shaheed hue hai unki…zara yaad karo tum kahani.’ Moved me to tears. Outside the memorial, on the highway, we saw the sign ‘Beware. You are under enemy observation.’ But somehow, it did not shake us completely as we gave our final salute and bid farewell to the soldiers who protected our nation from these enemies. RESPECT. JAI JAWAN.

Day 10 (July 05 2010): So Drass was supposedly the second coldest inhabitated place in the world and the temperature had gone down to minus 60 degrees celcius on 9th January 1995! Somehow, having braced sterner weather conditions before, and the fact that it was summer 15 years later, we found Drass weather to be pretty tolerable ;-) Having missed the 9am one-way deadline to head towards Srinagar, we chilled and relaxed in ‘Kashmir ki vaadiyaan’ until lunch. Then came the most strenuous and difficult drives ever and hats off to our brilliant driver Santosh who carried an Innova full of 8 people and tonnes of luggage through the narrow one-way road of Zojila Pass. Probably the most dangerous drive in the world, there was rocky mountain on one side and deep valley on the other with little space for movement or mistake.

We saw the widely strewn Amarnath camp tents in the Zojila valley with 2 dedicated helicopters going to and fro to the Shiva Lingam for darshan. Sonmarg, the coniferous paradise, greeted us with open arms as we descended this Pass. Pretty little flowers of all colours – blue, pink, yellow, red, purple dotted the green landscape. There were thousands of roses and carnations, fresh aroma of dewey grass, cattle and sheep grazing and lazy good looking people with red chubby cheeks swarming up the place.

Flat tyre, limited petrol and fading sunlight spiced up our journey from Sonmarg to Srinagar. The night we arrived in the capital city of Kashmir, it was as quiet as a graveyard. The city was under curfew due to riots, which was a regular feature there. We made our way through half the town to reach Hotel Jehangir and drowned into our beds after eating what looked like food!

Day 11 (July 06 2010): Having an entire day to ourselves in Srinagar with many potential sight seeing spots made a topic of discussion the next morning. After realizing that the city will be under indefinite curfew since there was a lot of disturbance around Baramulla area, we had no choice but to give Gulmarg and Pahalgam a miss, since that was the only route to reach there. So we headed to Wular Lake, about 40 kms from Srinagar, very close to the Indo-Pak border.

On our way back, we took a very good decision of staying at Dal Lake in a houseboat. This was a childhood dream come true for me. We sat in a shikara and went towards our houseboat humming the Shammi Kapoor classic ‘Ehsaan tera hoga mujhpar…dil chahta hai…use chahne do…mujhe tumse mohobbat ho gayi hai…mujhe palko ki chaaon mein rehne do.’ A marvelous sunset in the horizon made our evening special and memorable. We were amazed to see how to lake was buzzing with activities and hawkers selling everything in shikaras right from food to flowers, chocolates to liquor!! As we sailed into the twilight and the day faded away into a star-filled night…away from the chaos and curfew of the city, we found serene abode in the midst of Dal Lake. The houseboat was very artistically furnished with royal beds, ornamental dressing rooms, fresh flower arrangements and home-cooked healthy meals.

Day 12 (July 07 2010): The day of my departure dawned so soon! I know, I know, all my readers think otherwise. (Gosh how can she ramble on for so long about a 12 day trip, you may think!) But that’s who I am, remember? The yapper…who loves yapping! J A lovely bright morning followed by some shopping in the Dal Lake market consumed most of my morning.
And then, before I knew it, it was time for goodbyes. Goodbye to the most awesome trip of my life. Goodbye to Srinagar. Goodbye to nature in abundance and sheer boundless beauty. Goodbye to the greenery, the mountains, the deserts, the lively water bodies. Goodbye to the paradise of India and the colours of Kashmir. Goodbye to my new bunch of friends who made the trip so happening and cool. And Goodbye to my dear friend who made it all happen. The journey back to Mumbai from Srinagar was pretty dull as I gulped down Kasatta icecream and Kitkat to get over my post holiday depression. But as I boarded the plane back home, I made up my mind to revisit it, some day, in some life. I think I left a part of myself there. :)

Monday, November 9, 2009

Blogging after a long time...

Blogging after a long time...I might have lost my touch....think I suffer from a writer's block...but still I wanna continue doing what I love doing...hence this effort! The skill might have tarnished over the months and a lot of unnecessary babble might ensue...but kindly pardon the first attempt at second innings! :)

Maa...probably the only sincere and loving reader of all my posts and writings since childhood (love her for that) has been asking me for my latest post since a really long time....but I always told her...there should be a burst of inspiration to write! After all what would I have written about my mundane daily life of work-office-lil entertainment-same issues? I mean...who likes to read the routine! So there was thing long hiatus where I waited for a change...and change I got...and how!

COMING UP NEXT...about my travel escapades to Bangalore & Mysore...one of the nicest trips in the longest time! :))
STAY TUNED....!!!

Friday, April 24, 2009

On the brink of a silver jubilee...

Have you ever tried compartmentalizing your thoughts in boxes? And then trying to recreate a thought room to store these boxes by clearing little space in the corners of your mind? I do that. My thought-box room consists of big boxes and tiny boxes...blue boxes and white boxes...crooked boxes and empty boxes...kicking boxes and silent boxes...and all those that make my thought boxes! Some are angrily kicking and raring to go, whereas others are neatly wrapped up in ribbons n bow, every box is a special thought with a tiny little story keenly sought! As I approach quarter of the century...and attempt a spring cleaning of my thought box room...I have mixed feelings!


So I open the box in the furthest corner of the room...one that has gathered dust over time...a time which stored my memories when I was a tiny little child. And out flow the thoughts with hops, skips and jumps - very colourful, vibrant and innocent! Every adult says that childhood is the best time of your life where there is so little worry and care, no responsibility, no heavy headed emotions to deal with. The day consisted of school, play, food and sleep! Now that I have left those days far behind, I cant help but feel nostalgic about the most carefree days till date. The days were characterised by love and tender care from mom, disciplining from dad, fights with a naughty brother, stories and studies with family and innumerable dinner table discussions with topics ranging from stock markets to school projects! At school - Being the shortest in class every year and hence always first in the assembly line for prayers, 3 wonderful old stone school buildings situated opposite the exotic Juhu Beach, April final exams, school samosa-chutney, reopening of school after a long summer vacation in June and jumping through puddles in the torrential monsoons! Growing up through 'baa baa black sheep...' and ' Uma Joshi ye ye ye...' and book cricket, kitty kitty coming, chip-chop, Name Place Animal Thing, jolly and watnot!!!!!! Going for long summer holidays to nana-nani's place in summers, reciting tables, listening to wonderful stories, elocution classes and the failed attempt made by mom to kindle a sportsperson in me by cultivating badminton, cycling, swimming, tennis, athletics, etc. and adopting almost nothing!


My eyes then fall on a 'black box'...the so called first hardship that life threw at me in Class X as I struggled hard to perform well and match up to hundreds of expectations, including my own! Unit Tests, prelims, test series and the like dominated this first uncertainity in life. And after having passed with 'flying colours' the big confusion about what to take up and become in life! A 15 year old being asked this question is intimadating. Because it is that phase when we need to fold up and keep aside the wishful thinking or far fetched dreams that changed faster than seasons in childhood. 'Oh I want to be an airhostess' 'Maybe a doctor?' ' I think I will do well as an astronaut!' Some of us pursued these high flying dreams but most of us encountered a stark reality, much different from fantasy!


My next target is the confused box. Most of us landed up in junior college and were suddenly bombarded with an unprotected environment, weirdoes, teenage blues, unconcerned faculty and laid back lifestyle. To think that I went religiously to college and classes from Mon-Sat like a nerd gives me an embarassing jitter! I was just too docile and nice then and a 'model student'...thankfully not a 'chamchi'! Those walks back home with two good friends...the stupid jokes we cracked...mindless of what the others think...the adrenalin rushes we got when crush no. 7 smiled in the canteen...such a bunch of dodos we were!!!!


Somehow the feelings attached with the box have continued into time...and the confusion has seeped in almost all thoughts! But anyway...it was still a happy confused phase where relations were few, duties even fewer and it was still not time to 'prove' yourself and calibre. It was a very 'Main Aisa Kyun Hoon' phase...where we were still groping to find reason for our existence and an angry energetic lot which rebelled against the hormones and changing environments in our own confused ways!


Just then, I realize that I am sitting on probably the largest box in the room - blue in colour and for a reason! It is the graduation box so neatly wrapped up with ribbons and balloons - all blue! Flash back to a time when 20 of us sat at a friend's (Kanu's) place and neatly cut and wrapped up items to go into huge blue bags for the rockstar event of our college festival Drishti called Business @ Campus! The entire room was filled with huge blue polythene bags and it was aptly termed as a 'blue room'. For me it was a room of work-in-progress where young minds came up with brilliant ideas for the festival and tonnes of projects. It was a place where we argued and brainstormed on what-ifs and fulfilled our ambitions by assuming a position on the top of the bed stead as CEO of a make believe marketing company - Kuttaya! (I do not remember why we came up with such a name...!). We had a unique bunch of teachers which added colour and joy to drab studies. It was fun bunking Kanodra Ma'am's Law lectures, laughing at stupid Sajid sir and whacky Venky Pony's double meaning jokes, listening to recitals and songs by Prof. Nilesh Zaveri, being called Xerox Institute of Management by Prof. Viju Navare and finding a very cool coordinator in Aashita Mehra! Studying for exams happened in the last week of each semester where tension was immense and notes were few and the most frequented place was a xerox shop for study material rather than a college library! 3 Years, 6 Semesters, 1 Festival, 2 industrial visits...few very close friends and a lifetime of memories!!!!! :)


Voila! Amongst my most recent collections I spot a rainbow coloured box. Although the colourful box reveals its personality and memories from the cover itself, I still wonder whats in store! And there are indeed surprises galore! Its my one year in Cardiff that is quietly stored away...some pictures and some glimpses that I scan through almost every other day! A year full of independence, travel, studies, hostel life, fantastic friends, scenic locations (River Taff) and international education. A year which I can describe as the closest I could come to childhood. Although I had responsibilities of looking after my room, my stuff, my bills, my studies and my food...it was still a very carefree life with so much to look forward to and learn each day. Imagine having an Outlook calender of an entire year in front of you to plan the way you want it and imagine balancing it among studies, enjoyment and independence! Being your own agenda manager and imbibing the experiences from a melting pot of cultures! Too much to recount...nostalgia unlimited!

Returning from Cardiff and coming back to the 'life that was' I guess was the hardest thing to do. And the last 2.5 years have been the toughest ever. That is mainly because I am yet to find a box to fill in the time which I am sometimes seriously considering erasing! Sometimes I think I am looking for a duster to clean the slate?!! I am existing yes...but not living!

I think about so many lessons that my heart and mind had to learn the hard way, so many instances and associations that could have been avoided fetching less hurt. Friends who were so geographically apart or emotionally apart added to the 'empty feeling'. Often it confuses me why browsing through the phonebook of my cell phone does not yield even a single person whom I can easily call and talk to!? Lonliness pangs?? Maybe. Dunno. I guess its normal to have a vague and ambigous picture about your future - the so called QUARTER LIFE CRISIS that most of us embrace at these times. I am glad about the professional competence that I have gathered in a short span and could not have been happier about the professional stability that I have received in recent times! Thank you God for making that aspect of my life so absolutely rocking! :)

Dear God, as I get ready to 'cross the bridge' to the 'wrong side of 20's'... I have more things to be thankful about than to crib about. A rocking career, the most supportive family ever, a little bunch of very loving friends, a vibrant office environment and a room full of memory boxes! And most importantly a consolation that there is still a LOT of room for new memories to be formed, for the happy & difficult experiences to be embedded in the depths of mind. A very clean slate...I am ready to take on the FORMIDABLE 25....HEAD ON!!!!!!! Bring it on dear God...I am very curious and excited to see what LIFE HAS IN STORE...! :)

PS - Dear God...please bless all my loved ones for sticking by me and helping me find the very 'reason to be'!!! :)

Friday, April 10, 2009

Phir Wohi Shaam...

And to think I had lost my trail of thought and the will to write! Well here I am...back and hopefully wid a bang! I guess I was suffering from a critical case of 'writer's block' where mind wanted to write but heart did not have words. Sometimes there is so much happening and so much to deal with, that expression in its purest form becomes difficult. I just did not know what to pen down as I had much bitterness and anger seething inside me then. Mom was partly responsible to encourage me to write again and I guess I needed something as interesting as last evening to induce me to write!

After a super hectic day at work, I was dragged to a musical concert which celebrated Madan Mohan classics. Madan who? I said when I was first told about him. Pat came a reply from mom - one of the finest music directors of the black & white era. I am a fan of B&W classics so decided to give it a shot. If not anything else, the melodious evening would drift me into sleep which was evading me since a long time. Turns out - I was in for a surprise!

Madan Mohan was indeed a treasure island who unfortunately composed the HIT songs of FLOP movies and was given the misunderstood title of Ghazal King which confined him in a niche whereas he was much more than just that. Surprisingly the emotional artist and spectacular composer never received his due of recognition and prestige while he lived. He had the best talents of the industry like Lata Mangeshkar, Talat Mehmood, Mohd. Rafi, Kishore Kumar, Asha Bhosle, etc. singing timeless and ageless songs for him for his career span of more than a quarter of a century until his death in 1975.

For the conossieurs of old Hindi music the evening was a treat with resounding melodies from movies like Anadi, Mera Saaya, Heer Ranjha, Bawarchi, Haste Zakham, Adalat, Haqueeqat, etc. Interestingly, my post title is also based on one of his well known song - 'Phir Wohi Shaam...' dedicated to a memorable evening. And for the ones belonging to my generation, remember the tunes of SRK and Preity Zinta starrer Veer Zaara? True to its reputation - a forgettable movie with unforgettable songs! 30 years after his death, Madan Mohan lent his music to the movie which resulted in delightful compositions like - 'Tere liye...hum hain jiye...honton ko siye, Tere liye...,.hum hain jiye....har aansoo piye. Dil mein magar...Jalte rahe...Chahat ke diye...Tere liye...Tere liye...!' This was indeed a tribute to the man he was and the music he made!

The 3 hour concert was quite mesmerizing...well most of it was...there were some ghazals which I had never heard and was difficult to relate to them. But overall a very pleasant evening. The writer in me, almost always judges the song by its lyrics. I normally get very impressed with the words and the meaning that they convey. Rarely has music come to the fore and lyrics dissolved in the background the way it happened for me last evening. Its unusual and enticing to see how Madan Mohan ji has utilized different instruments to suit different moods of songs - sitar being his favourite, drums, flutes, pianos and side rhythms! An amateur like me was not even aware about the ornamental section of a song which was contributed by 20 different types of side rhythms! The tinkling of the glass, the stomping of the wood, the breeze in a boat or the jingle of the ghungroo were never so pronouced as they came alive in front of us in the form of splendid side rhythms of a well coordinated orchestra!

My personal favourite was a Madan Mohan song penned by Rajendra Singh from the 1958 movie Adalat sung by Mohd. Rafi and Asha Bhosle - 'Zameen se humein aasamaan par bithaa ke gira to na doge? Agar hum yeh poochein ke dil men basa ke bhula to na doge? ' The song displays insecurity and love as twin concepts and the lyrics are wonderfully interwoven and attired with soothing music. The song and its lyrics show strength and character because of the entralling music that supports it!

Anyway, to wind up the unusual evening, I would like to say that coming from a Javed Akhtar and A R Rehman generation, I totally adore the catchy soulful songs that they dish out whereas at the same time I chuckle at suicide bombers of the constipated 'uuuuuuuuuuuuuuu' genre! But its nice to be transported sometimes in the time that was - when life was simple, problems were fewer, time was abundant and feelings more vivid and deep. Songs of music directors like Madan Mohan provide a glimpse back into the stories of the GOLDEN ERA! Like a well wisher of the Madan Mohan family put it - ' Yaadon ke ujalo ka saath na chodo...Naa Jaane kis mod par Zindagi ki shaam ho jaye...Usi shaam ke andhere mein yaadon ke diye timtimate hue aasmaan ko roshan kar jaye...! ' :)

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Music & Lyrics

Whenever I am confused, lonely, undecided and lost, I listen to this song (courtesy: Drew Barrymore and Hugh Grant starrer Music & Lyrics). My current state of mind, hums this song each day as I go on mechanically with my daily chores and hectic work schedule. Although I steal a few moments of happiness and rest through mini holidays, songs like this are food for my soul. This song weaves in hopes, fears, love, lonliness and togetherness so beautifully and simply, that I cannot help but sink into these music & lyrics every now & then. Just thought of penning it here, to make it a forever portion of my writing world.


I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on!

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something from my soul somewhere!

I've been looking for someone to she'd some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,

And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!

Monday, January 26, 2009

Searching for Happiness...

Often life oscillates between what could have been and what will be…in the midst of which I forget what is! I think that happens to most of us – always ruefully or fondly remembering the past and weaving nascent dreams for future! What easily goes for a toss then is the PRESENT – the time that is…the time we are living in…NOW!

And funnily, every time we read it, or hear someone saying it or even think of it ourselves, it makes perfect sense that we should get back to making the most of what we have now, rather than cribbing about any other phase of life. But it rarely ever happens. Even if it does happen, it is just momentary.

Over time, through fleeting incidents that life offers and chance meeting with interesting people, I have grown to realize that unlike what I thought earlier – happiness and sadness are nothing but a state of mind over which we have full control and command. It is how we choose, and how we live, that determines our reactions to different situations in our life and the decisions that we make and/or are forced to make!

When I open up my mind and heart there is so much more clarity in what I observe in the world outside. There is a 65 year old widow sitting in the confines of her tiny little house in a small town in Gujarat living amidst ill-health, leaky roofs in monsoons, limited expenses and without partner - none of which act as deterrents and her faith in Almighty makes her believe that she is the ‘happiest’ a person can be with no hardships at all. And there is a 100 year old man who cannot move around on his own but still holds the spirit which can put youngsters to shame and has interesting anecdotes to share about his doting family and simple life!

These were just few very personal insights. But there are many more, which each of us encounter in our day to day life but conveniently ignore. There I was nursing a hurt and feeling as if a part of me went missing. And then one day I decided to wake up from my selfish slumber and open my eyes to view people around. There were so many things that I just took for granted which were mere starry eyed luxuries in other people’s lives. It reminds me of how Will Smith's character went through the painful struggle against poverty and ill-luck to finally make it to the top and experience the sweet taste of success in the movie 'The Pursuit of Happyness'. There are so many people like him who right from birth belong to noone and carve their own way as they grow up and embrace this struggle. They have never seen the faces of parents or loved ones who guide them and inspire them to reach new heights and live a meaningful life. Either they just figure it all out or they get lost in the ambiguity of the world that braces million others.

And then there are people who are not blessed with an active mind but they want to live a ‘normal life’. We come across people with unusual talents but being zeroed to ordinary just because they have an essential part of their physical bodies missing. Imagine waking up one morning and not being able to see the sunrise. Imagine not being able to hear the symphonies of music. Imagine not being able to touch or feel or get pleasure from the little things in life. Hard to imagine? Most definitely. Taken for granted? Maybe! Imagine being the single bread earner and working to your fullest capacity to fulfill your dream of a home, secure future for your family and a comfortable lifestyle and waking up crippled one morning. Scary to imagine? Hell yeah…!

I reflect back and evaluate – I have a wonderfully supportive family who has stuck by me through thick and thin, a well paying job, a good career path, am blessed with few great friends, perfect senses and healthy body, comfortable lifestyle and an active mind that dreams colorfully. And here I am losing myself over a few things that did not culminate pleasantly. When did they occupy so much importance in my life that I forgot to count my blessings? Why did I begin imagining an incomplete existence without those few things which had still not taken any shape and form? Did I not just define my happiness around some unpleasant and unsure factors? I guess I did… and that’s where I need to step in for damage control.

They say ‘Happiness is nothing more than good health and a bad memory.’ I am not saying it is easy to forget and move on. But atleast I have to make an effort of being thankful for so many things that God has given me – some even without asking, rather than blaming him for what he did not give me. Yes I need to change and understand God’s connotation behind this message. A journey has to begin – a journey of soul searching and finding eternal happiness. A journey of not only working hard towards a goal, but also enjoying the struggle to achieve it. A journey of interacting with people and being sensitive towards them but not losing myself in the bargain. Never again. This is a challenging journey but it should not be too hard. The least I can begin with is appreciating the miracle called life and the gift called nature. It is never too late. I remember a striking line from a poem, Leisure that we had when in school –

‘What is this life so full of care, we have no time to stand and stare…’

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Walking the path...

There is a new path waiting for you to explore
You begin walking with a fresh vigour to endure
There is barely a chance to feel weird and blue
Coz everything around is colorful bright and new

There is spring in the step and zeal in the walk
There is hope in the head and courage in the talk!
You have it in you to give what it takes
You can go all the way to win all the stakes!!!

Then bam go the good times and you reach a dead-end
You wonder WHY God on this avenue had you send?
You look around for clues, options and bail outs
You find none of this coz all around is blackouts!!

Swoosh go the trees and swish go the unknown waters
You know not how to swim; the thought gives you jitters..!
In this eerie deadly silence, for rescue your ears are pinned…
Your existence is exposed like a mere candle in the wind!

Then out come your anger and the agony of the pain
You wonder upon wonder how from suffering you would refrain.
The questions come to the fore as you imagine God’s errand
If HE knew there is no answer why HE would send you on a dead-end?

Then unknowingly He tiptoes into your world and says
‘My dear child, there is a reason for life’s uncertain ways
I want you to earn and learn from every new experience
In life at different stages I throw you these challenges for reasons…

Fret not coz you did not get what you desired the easy way
In life change is the only constant factor I always say
Do not lose courage and fight the situation with power
With every punch and pounce I promise you will go higher!’

You fight back your tears and picture is crystal clear now
You know now that there is something else destined for you somehow
Dead end is not like quick sand and you can find a way out
Just remember the REVERSE gear that life offers when in doubt!

There is a new path waiting for you to explore
You begin walking with a fresh vigour to endure
There is barely a chance to feel weird and blue
Coz everything around is colorful bright and new

There is spring in the step and zeal in the walk
There is hope in the head and courage in the talk!
You have it in you to give what it takes
You can go all the way to win all the stakes!!!

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Summin up 2008...

Its a cosy Sunday morning (ermm afternoon) and I am sitting with my fresh fruit juice and madly typing away on my laptop.What is different about today? Not much except that its 4 days for the New Year..2009! Ah alright...so it is saying goodbye to one year and welcoming the other...whats so big in that...have been doing it since almost quarter of a century!Maybe thats what is different...the realisation that quarter of your life is almost done and as any young dynamic 25 year old Im trying to access if the year gone by has added feathers to my cap or taken a few away from it. As I look back...I have mixed feelings as to how 2008 turned out to be - for me as well as the world.

In absolutely no chronological order there are happy times and not so happy times that I recollect.For one a very BIG change was the job jump this year into a cooler and smarter profile which has added much value to my work, perspectives and personality as the future analyst and one of the many faces of the international technology company in the eyes of the world and media. The learning curve has by no means been easy, the path has been rocky and hurdles have been many. But as I have heard somewhere ' Its only the struggles that make you sharper and more acceptable of the good times ahead. Nothing comes easy in life and thats really the essence of it. If someone were to sit and read a book on your life he would want to know what made you a successful person and what hardships you endured to reach a smooth and happy point in your life.Its the crests and troughs...the uphills and downhills and not a smooth express highway that make an exciting rollercoaster ride called LIFE.'
As much as I would like to not believe it...I am afraid its so true!

It is the year where I could sponsor my holiday abroad with a friend, do a fresh set of adventure sports, go on my first business conference trip and attend a fancy analyst briefing in Singapore and what not.

2008 also happened to be a year of disappointments - one major mind boggling creation being RECESSION. Recession hit the world and so badly. For a layman like me it meant job cuts and hiring freezes everywhere. It is definitely a time of showing immense patience and having been involved in the job hunt for 2 close friends I can vouch for the fact that this exercise can be futile at times and leave you at wit's end.

To add to the gloom, 26/11 happened to Mumbai. It should never have happened. It shook the very existence of its citizens and raised questions on the safety and security standards of the commercial capital and highest tax payer of the nation.It woke the people up from their slumber and unearthed the weak political system responsible for a gargantuan loss. It was a grey November as India weeped with Mumbai as innocent sacrifices were made in the midst of a larger poltical war. The towers that stood the test of time were The Taj, The Oberoi, Nariman House and CST Station.By the end of the brave operation by our commendable officers, a huge carcass was found - that of the SPIRIT OF MUMBAI. It was wounded beyond recognition and would need more than just candle protests and morchas to heal. It led us to question our voting processes and somehow began the journey of awakening the mobilized youth to understand the power of our democracy and be the change. The scar was non-removable and the heat was molten!

On a personal front 2008 has had many misses and a few hits.For one, this whole process of growing up has been irritatingly amusing. It is what most people my age would call the formidable QUARTER LIFE CRISIS. It has been a year of figuring out how I fit in the larger picture of things, how things work in the nasty corporate world, how to please your boss, how to retain your job, how to marry work and divorce relaxation to be the best and how to shape up your career by experimenting and reinventing oneself. Where do you fit in the other things that make up your personality or add a little bit spice to your life. Seeing friends go different ways - geographically and emotionally. Changing definitions of 'hanging out with a group of friends' who now become a 'phone call away' or in the modern Gtalk lingo ' a ping away'. Finding a few bright moments in the virtual world by keeping in touch with friends made through academic life and realising how impossible it is to meet the same set of friends living in the same city but caught up in different things for months together. These were the very same people whom you used to meet everyday in college not so long ago to wild away the time in stupid projects, crazy festivals,canteen chats and lazy lectures! You realise how life changes around you, how you evolve and grow but still get nostalgic and feel like humming those Bryan Adams lyrics - Those were the best days of my life! Yes thats how it is to reminicise about the childhood and teenage years when attending a 7am lecture used to be a 'STRUGGLE'. Yeah this was the year of identifying how the words remain same and definitions change...sitations change...people change!!!

This has also been a phase of realisation about how age bears responsibility and face the many issues that we as children wondered what the 'ADULTS' were facing. Yes it has been a time when I have suddenly grown up to the issues surrounding home and family and realised how hazy things are around me, how close people are looking for support and solutions to handle family issues and how I am trying hard to fulfil my role of being a support system to my folks. This task has not been easy and have often broken down, only re-emerge as a stronger person and understand the 'real world', the selfishness and the diplomacy that tries to win over simplicity and goodness. It has been my very own experience in dealing with the vamp like situations of daily soaps and although there is no dramatic ending, there has been an effort to look beyond the muck for the young lotus called life! That is LIFE! :)

Anyways, I would really have to agree with a journalist who said that 2008 can be dubbed as the MOST FORGETTABLE YEAR. There are hopes of a turnaround of the GREAT DEPRESSION that the world currently faces, with the newly elected American President Obama. There will be jobs again (I really hope so, for 2 hardworking, sincere and promising friends who deserve to be some place nice) and obviously for the world at large (including me)!2009 is also the year of the National Elections and through campaigns such as jaagore, there are hopes to invoke our youth with a sense of responsibity in selecting the right leaders and BEING THE CHANGE. I have often been asked by friends why I look forward so much to 2009 and how would it be different from the two busted years of 2007 and 2008. Well I just look forward to the new year with a new vitalised energy, new optimism and a bright hope of more clarity on a personal front. I wish it to be a year when my future would be more visible on all fronts and I will have figured out what I really want and what I inspire to be. It is the year when I finish a silver jubilee and make a promise to myself to become a DRIVER of things and someday reach a pinnacle so as to die a happy woman. Assuming I live till I am 75, I have 2/3 of my life to make this difference and become a GOOD PERSON. 2009, maybe is the the year all this begins!
There is a lil fledging sitting on the threshold of our door called 2009, waiting to open its eyes and flap its wings and fly into our world. It is time to bid GOODBYE to 2008...and welcome 2009 with ARMS WIDE OPEN...!

Friday, November 28, 2008

Ek Vivah Aisa Bhi...




Some couplets that come to mind about Marriage as mentioned by Kahlil Gibran in The Prophet --

'You were born together, and together you shall be for evermore.
You shall be together even in the silent memory of God.
...And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.
Love one another, but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shore of your souls.
...Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,
...And stand together yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and cypress grow not in each other's shadow.'

Well thats what is a wedding after all - a marriage!

Come November and December, India becomes the wedding hub of the world. Winter weddings are very much in vogue and the wedding season has pretty much begun here this year.Wedding industry is soon becoming very big and commercialised and no amount of credit crunch really seems to be affecting its magnitude or intensity this year.

Weddings in India are a lot of fun...well for almost all except for the main people involved!Its full of relatives and friends, a get-together of sorts, dancing, laughter and great FOOD.Its upto the bride and groom whether they really can enjoy all these festivities. Normally I have seen tensed grooms and flustered made up brides go through tonnes of rituals, fasts, pujas, anxious moments, camera lights and endless activities. They look so drained by the end of the day that all they want to really do is sleep...not even eat but then comes the whole round of bidaai and griha pravesh ceremonies and hundreds of 'PAAI LAAGU's' along with smiling for innumerable photographs till the facial muscles ache. Most times you are smiling and meeting people probably for the first and last time in the life...but then you are hosting the wedding - look presentable or die!

Aah well...thats maybe a very warped way of looking at weddings - im sure they are fun and maybe I will cross the bridge when I come to it. After all it is coming together of 2 individuals and getting each other introduced to the families while shedding inhibitions and celebrating precious moments. It is definitely the most special day of these 2 people's lives as they embark upon a journey together with so many happy times and blessings for their togetherness. Infact the idea of ritualistic Indian weddings in very appealing and a beautiful concept coz you are the centre of attention and everything is done by loved ones to make it your most memorable day!

Its even better when you are on the other side - i.e. the guest attending the wedding. Last weekend a Cardiff friend, Parag got married with much pomp and show in a little town of Ahmednagar - a couple of hours away from Pune.The best part of attending this wedding was a reunion with several mates from the B-School I passed out from more than 2 years ago.

It was awesome how I was meeting people after such a huge lull but still reconnecting with them as if I always was around them. I guess technology had a big role to play coz even though the physical distances separated good pals living in different corners of India, we were very much in sync and networked through the virtual world.So this was not the day when Chennai, Jaipur, Delhi, Mumbai, Pune & Bangalore came together. IT WAS THE DAY WHEN CARDIFF CAME DOWN TO AHMEDNAGAR. The same spirit, the same jokes, the same people - just a different location. Ofcourse it was heartening to know how so many of us were married or committed, how many had been successfully handling 'papa's business', some still studying further and a few like me were married to their work! :) We all had grown obviously in terms of maturity and seriousness about what life would have in store but that did not disuadde us from discussing the funny professors and courses we had back then, the crazy winters of Cardiff and general gossip about buddies or batchmates who could not make it for the wedding. While I was still digesting the idea of many of us married (girls and boys alike) - some as old as me or even younger, I was quite shocked to know how a couple of them were about to become daddies. No offence to anyone concerned but I had worked with these so-called uncles on projects and they definitely were like kids themselves then.So 2 years must have affected some massive transformation for them to move on to newer roles in life!Commendable & Brave(really no sarcasm indicated)!!

Apart from the numerous functions, umpteen number of outfit changes (like Bollywood actors) and running about to reach the venue - a part which took up most of our time was the MEALS. Ever been to a Marvari wedding? If not, then you should go once to experience atleast once what I am about to narrate. Imagine having 5-6 meals in a day with atleast 15-20 types of sweets in every meal, shoved down your mouth by relatives of the bride and groom alike as a way of expressing their gratitude for us being able to grace the occassion. Imagine all these mithais dripping in ghee, with tonnes of dryfruits and unimaginable amount of sugar!!!Thats like eating a year full of calories in a single day. To add to it, there was a special meal arranged in the afternoon by the bride's side called 'Svajan Kot' where the groom and his friends (us) sat across a table and were served (forced) mithais down our throats and no amount of pitiable faces, groans, anger or denial really was visible to any of them. For them the motto was 'Feed them.' Well anyways, each wedding and each custom has its special aspects and maybe it was an important aspect for them, so all respect to that!

However what was really endearing was how the groom's father looked after us as if we were his own kids. It was awesome how our stay was so well planned and coordinated, how transport was so well arranged, how all our needs and requirements were taken care of so smoothly and how the groom and his family made every effort to ensure we have a luxurious and memorable wedding. It was really a very touching gesture and something we all learnt from coz its easy to invite guests but its equally difficult to make them feel at home. And thats how we felt at Parag's wedding - at home. For a person who is getting married or his immediate family, when really there are several other aspects that need to be taken care of on their family front - to show this amount of dedication and importance to just a bunch of friends was really very commendable!

The chilly November night, the beautiful lawns, the spectacular fireworks and decor, the magnificient lights and flowers, the sparkling diamonds, the flashy outfits, the melodious music, celebrations & joy, gossipping with old friends, laughing over stupid matters,posing for innumerable photos, eating thousands of meals, a happy bride and groom - are all the memories that I took back from me last Sunday afternoon when I left Ahmednagar. Will I like to attend such a wedding again? Sure thing! I am game for it, ofcourse with a pinch of Pudin Hara!!! ;) :)

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

In conversation with the Almighty...!

So many times in life before, I tried and tried to do things my way (hey, hey, hey)...I thought that I was smart enough...I thought I knew enough...I didn't realize the problem was, the struggle was between my will and Yours...So I'm giving up my will for Yours, I'm totally depending on You (please come through).... - Tye, Tribbet & G.A.

These are some random lines I came across recently, while casually browsing the net. And these lines, strangely dominate my current thought process – profoundly crazy at times and eerily intimidating otherwise!

For someone from my generation – I have my independent set of do’s and don’ts which may or may not agree with the mould called SOCIETY always! There are many ambitious dreams I harbor and many beautiful (materialistic and otherwise) things I desire. But it is not always that I obtain all of them. Some of the wishes are difficult, some impossible and some outrageously weird! God rations his ‘tathastu’ when I put my wishes in front of him and pretty much controls my sail of life with HIS Will, which is sometimes in agreement and sometimes against MINE. And I keep having my fights with Him, I feel I am smarter, cooler and brighter to make these decisions and whoosh go the pack of cards that I dreamt for myself.

I am quite sure that each of us, at some juncture in this topsy turvy journey of life comes across a situation where we ask a series of random daunting questions – Why me God? What is in this for me? Why did you let it happen to me? Did I not believe in your enough? Do you not want me to be happy? Why can I not get what I really want? Why do you not LISTEN to me? More often then not, these questions are met with an unsettling silence.

When in such a situation, often people around us try to console by saying things like ‘You do not know the plight of the world and there are people who are suffering much more than you. You should be happy with what you have. There must be some good in you not getting what you really wanted….’ It can go on and on. But somehow, try as I may, I cannot get myself to think about the less privileged when faced with this situation. I mean due to respect to a lot of people in the world, who are suffering a lot, it is very natural for me to feel that my pain is unique and unparalleled with the rest and hence should not be compared! It is very difficult to compare my needs and wants with that of a street rag picker for the simple reason that we belong to different stages of hierarchy in Maslow’s Needs Pyramid – her concern is shelter, security and food, whereas mine is social acceptance, status and love. I am quite sure, that when her physiological and security needs are fulfilled, she would also move on to wanting love and esteem. It is true that when you always end up wanting something more or something better, when you get what you first wanted; until you feel self actualized and then you want nothing at all.

I have, in this life, only met one such person – a person very close to my heart and a person whom I am privileged to call my Nanaji (maternal grandfather). He was a man with a league of his own, with an eye for perfection and a heart of gold. It was from him, that I imbibed unflinching strength and courage to brace the villains that life threw at me at various stages– academics, friendships, relationships, health and the corporate world. For a man, who was terminally ill and could see his fast approaching death, he had an unfailing spirit and an amazing faith in God. He had dedicated all his remaining moments to bhakti and he did it with such charm and grace! He always welcomed every moment with a smile on his face saying it’s a gift from God. Whenever I went to him with a morose face and lost hope he recharged me with positive energy saying 'God has something GREAT in store for you and hence he did not give you the GOOD. Just keep praying and thanking Him for what he has given you.' I never used to understand that, but still followed his faith, believed in his belief and almost always something GREAT ended up coming to me and a lost opportunity came back with much more vigour and with much more to offer! Death is a dreadful thing, and especially when you know its on the threshold, welcoming it with open arms and not making any qualms about it is a trait which Nanaji exhibited and left us speechless. It was almost like a halo around his serene soul that I saw, when I met him last.

You left me too early Nanaji. There was so much more that I had to learn from you…

As almost every young person of my age undergoing the so called Quarter Life Crisis – I have had my share of crests and troughs and the journey has by no means been smooth. And like my elders would say – I am yet to embrace the real struggle called LIFE. But I would say that life after this is pretty much based on the choices you make NOW. Hence the NOW decides the THEN. So many questions zoom past in the head that collecting and collating them would take another era for sure. Is this the best career for me? Will I be able to support the rest of my life, based on this? What is it that I really want to do? Am I caught in the wrong job? Is the job taking a lot out of me? Is the struggle needed? Do I feel empty inside? Why can I not be with the person I love? Am I with the right partner? How do I find the best partner, who is compatible with my lifestyle, my dreams and my very existence? How on earth would I do that in a matter of days? Mind or Heart? Where do I see myself 20 years from now? 5 years from now? A few months from now?

These are just few of the questions that can really bum a person out. I would say that the need of the hour is CLARITY but all that we think ultimately amounts to AMBIGUITY. No amount of pondering can help, if nothing, it can screw things up even more. The only thing that really gets me peace of mind is not a parent or friend but not surprisingly it is GOD. And that is what I have been doing a lot lately – praying! I do not know whether it will yield me my answers – but it definitely silences the tornado inside me.

Does God listen, you say? Well, I would like to put it this way. God DOES listen but he does selective listening. A proof? Well last week, I was really pressed with deadlines at work and the mad boss and the usual mess. To exit the gas chamber, the only way out was a sick leave and I prayed earnestly to God that I fall sick to escape. Turns out that He did listen. Exactly 1 week later, I fell sick – very sick – viral, cold, fever and infection. So while the world outside was enjoying the fireworks and mithai of Diwali, I was coughing away to glory. I got my break from work during the office Diwali Holidays and instead of enjoying the festive season, I spent a greater part of 2 days in bed! Oh man…He does listen. It is just a test of how smart you are, since you do not know WHEN He listens! So my belief is, always ask for the right things – and He will listen :) Like a certain advertisement endorses - Try Karke Dekho! ;)

Thursday, October 2, 2008

A Era that ended...

As I sit today on a calm Thursday morning, sipping my coffee and reading newspaper and lazing around...I like the happy feeling that is surging through me...yes its Thursday and I am chilling coz its a mid week holiday...thank you Gandhiji for being born on October 2!

I ponder over the last 4 months and the tough times that have molded me, taught me, troubled me and changed me as an individual. I am definitely working in a fantastic profile...like a dream come true...but a lil part of me feels like missing the time that WAS. Moving on was a well thought out decision, but Nostalgia has been an old friend of mine...

I remembered about my time before I made a job switch almost 5 months ago.... and what I most remembered was my journey to and fro which made up a very memorable travel experience...

A typical day started with catching the 8:07 local train or even 8:14 (on lazy mornings). The train timings are typical to Mumbai and never rounded off to the nearer 5 or 10...I wonder why! Anyways, travelling by ladies first class to Churchgate was a comfort. A male friend had once remarked that the ladies first class compartment of a Churchgate bound local usually had the best looking women, elegantly dressed and expressing style, status and confidence. He is quite correct!

I can almost feel the corporate blood throbbing through my veins as I get off each day at 9am at Churchgate station among a pool of thousands trotting away to mint money!!!

Queuing up outside the station at a special share-a-cab booth meant exclusively for lady passengers traveling to Nariman Point ( Asia’s largest business district) was remarkable. I'd observe women indulge into catfights for the coveted front seat for cab ride or scuttle around to run into cabs during heavy rains...! And then out comes Rs.6. 50, the modest cab fare and probably just a sole dialogue addressing the wild cabbie 'Bhaiya, Nariman Bhavan jana hai.' Sit back, relax and enjoy the 5 minute cab ride along Marine Drive, with lemony tar breeze blowing from the vast expanse of the ocean on the right hand side and a series of hotels, restaurants and eateries on the left hand side. One such nice cozy place, Pizzeria, with sea facing tables, glass windows and vintage furniture is my personal favorite. It also has unique slogans written on the banner above it, which change every week and are visible to any passing car. A couple of interesting and situational slogans that pop up in my mind are - ' Too much of anything harms. Including Cricket.' during the T20 fever and then there was another one around the same time - ' Recommended: Cheerleaders at the Parliament to improve attendance!' Witty, sassy and sarcastic - these would almost always make me chuckle as I deciphered the wise messages they sought to convey.

Reaching the office building was not the end of the battle. One more queue for the office elevator, a necessity given that most buildings were 20-30 storeyed and my office was on the 14th! This is an aspect very distinct to Mumbai - QUEUES for almost anything & everything - a queue-o-mania of sorts!

Heading back home was also an event in itself. I had to travel back again in the peak hours i.e. post 6 pm. I usually picked up a Jumbo vada-pav, sukha bhel, samosa or a lil brown packet of popcorn (without minding the hygiene) as my food partner for the long journey. It was fascinating to see people clamor and pile like ants into trains that approached the various platforms of Churchgate, even before they reached a complete halt! Most of these trains were bound for Borivali and Virar so all the long distance travelers almost had an hour or even a couple of hours to spend in the train and hence catching seats like in school buses and managing a 4th seat was hugely like a well accomplished task!

Its strange how hundreds of men stuffed within a single General compartment almost about to fall off, with barely any space to breathe or even move one hand silently endure the pain and massage! And the ladies 2nd Class compartment is a complete riot in comparision. It is by far the noisiest, bickering and most colorful and eventful compartment of the entire train. A huge lot of people traveling by this one will be married women who are tired after a hard day at work and have thoughts of children’s homework, irritating in-laws, cooking, home issues, etc. on the top of their minds. So naturally the patience levels are low and decibel levels high! ‘ Tumne Dhakka Kyun Maara’….’Tune mera haath kyun kheecha’…..’Chup ho ja…thappad maroongi’ is very natural and usual exchange of words. If you get (un)lucky, you may witness 2 perfectly grown mature ladies ready to pull each other’s hair out and screeching on the top of their voices in order to travel comfortably. You might even spot someone knitting a sweater, another chopping vegetable for the evening, few of them catching on some winks of sleep, some friends bitching about their mother-in-laws and yet another section which religiously chants bhajans as the train zooms by. It is not a surprise then for Mumbai-ites to have their special ‘train’ friends! And if all this is not enough, you can also find, much to your delight, vendors floating past the already difficult to navigate compartment selling their wares ranging from fruits to earrings!

The first class ladies’ compartment on the other hand is much calmer, nicer and tolerable even during such mad rush hours. Here you will find women silently muttering into their cell phones, reading some fancy book, newspaper or fashion magazine, working on laptops and only fighting for fourth seats through tiny exchange of silent irritable expressions of discomfort.

That’s Mumbai train for you – running right through the centre of the city like a lifeline and forming the biggest commuting solution for its residents. No wonder when people move away from Mumbai they miss its transport – coz inspite of the dirt, dinginess, unplanned infrastructure, pollution & ruckus there is hardly any city which comes close to Mumbai in terms of its convenience of interlinked conveyance and easily accessible routes through interwoven modes of transport!

Thursday, September 18, 2008

My favourite things...

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things

Cream colored ponies and crisp apple streudels
Doorbells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
These are a few of my favorite things

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
Silver white winters that melt into springs
These are a few of my favorite things...
When this song was first introduced by Mary Martin and sung by Julie Andrews in the 1960's as the soundtrack of the classic movie - Sound Of Music, little did they know that it would become such a famous holiday melody!

It makes me ponder in amusement, about MY FAVOURITE THINGS. I know it will make a hideously non-rhythmic and erratically weird song, so I would not want to replicate the poetic style of this eternal song...for the sole fear of ruining it! But it surely makes me recall a lot of such things which bring a smile to my face and fetch moments of happiness like colourful bubbles in this otherwise drab, dingy routine life! I do not know if YOU (my reader/s) would identify with any or many of these, especially since a lot of these memories are associated with the city where I reside - Bombay! Aah but never mind...did I not say they were my favourite, anyway?

Its the big things (FRIENDS, FAMILY & LOVED ONES) and little things...its the funny things and weird things...it is an assortment of my favourite things. Eating vada-pav at a local stall with spicy chutney while getting drenched in the rains. Having garam garam bhajia and a huge mug of coffee while it is pouring outside. Curling up on the bean bag or sofa and reading a novel or classic for hours at a stretch. Travelling by the local train while observing catfights, humdrums, mad crowds and crazy spirit of boarding a train already brimming with people like ants attacking a sugar cube. Taking a long brisk walk in the joggers park or some nearby playground. A bike ride without helmet (I know that aint safe but whatever!) on a chilly December night.

Loud blasting music and rapturous squeals on kite flying day on terraces with colours and hues painted all over. Stunning fireworks on Diwali and New Year's Eve at Marine Drive. Splashing sea with maddening waves on a stormy thunderous days. Squealing kids and crazy adults alike dancing in the rain. Watching 3 back to back movies in a single day in a luxurious multiplex. Long drive on a pleasant day to the greenery and mountain side. Dancing with the weirdest of moves on Ganesh visarjan. Eating 4 plates of road-side pani puris one after another. Sketching on the beach, and staring into the endless blue sea as the Sun crystallises in the sky and calls it a day giving way to an orange-pink twilight.

Huge snowflakes blanketting the trees, sidewalk and rooftops and the bright Sun providing a glittery gold effect and making the world resemble a newly adorned newly adorned bride. Frosty nights. Para-sailing on a beautiful exotic island. An expensive haircut, with a new look. A designer dress bought at a huge discount. A bunch of friends playing Monopoly in the death of night and ordering pav-bhaji from the only restaurant open at 3am. River Taff. A silent church with elegant ethnic architecture. Palaces and royal stories of kings and queens. Exploring an unknown city all on my own! Bubble bath, spa & aromatherapy. Pampering and hugs from Mom. A stimulating oil massage, by Mom.

A drive to Lonavla – enveloped in greenery and beautiful streams and waterfalls gushing to embrace you. An infant’s innocent grin. Few crazy hours spent watching animation flicks with kids. Rasgulla. Prithvi Café. An enormous icecream sundae devoured with guilt of calories. Breaking rules. Christmas carols, lights and decorations. Scent of water sprinkled on parched land or dry mud. Snoozing all day. Rasgullas. Star gazing in the country side at the millions of planets, stars, solar systems and the full Moon. Kashmir. Watering a garden full of blooming flowers.

In different situations of life, these different set of things cheer me up. They are the things I resort to - when I am blue. Life is not easy. There are tonnes of regrets which can be very depressing. The truth is - Life is all that and more. It is upto us to steal the moments that fetch us happiness and peace, from the same glum and unhappy set of events. We owe it to ourselves. If we wouldnt be selfish and do it for ourselves - noone else will do it for us!!! We all should have some favourite things...some favourite times...that could help make this journey called LIFE easier and more fun! Here's to CELEBRATING LIFE!!! CHEERS!
Nothing Lasts forever, so live it up, drink it down, laugh it off avoid the bullshit, take chances, & never have regrets because at one point, everything you did was exactly what you wanted!!

Hence ends the post...and so do the lyrics...

...When the dog bites
When the bee stings
When I'm feeling sad
I simply remember my favorite things
And then I don't feel so bad!

Friday, August 29, 2008

Choices?!

‘Given a choice, I would/would not do this.’ How many times have we uttered this sentence aloud or in our mind? Have we ever thought about the consequences this statement would fetch, if God happens to listen to us?

Imagine an ideal (?) life where we would be granted choices in any stage, in every situation and at every instance. Aaah…that would be good…isn't it? Choose to wake up late and bunk office or college. Choose orange juice over a glass of milk for breakfast. Choose to relax and read all day by lying curled up in a sofa and reading a book sipping a cup of hot chocolate or cappuccino and laze around under the pretext of catching up on much needed sleep. Or even choose to shop all day and blow up a massive amount on some useless shopping!

There are larger aspects to having choices which paint a very rosy picture. I would choose to have an exotic holiday abroad or pamper myself to a spa treatment instead of slogging it out over a never ending project. I would also choose to make my life my own way, carve out every move. And so could YOU. YOU as in my reader/s. You might be thinking that I have written about all my choices to do with entertainment and relaxation, but let me tell you, it is only just a quotable instance. There are choices in almost any and every walk of life and a part of each decision that one makes. So choices are good, right? WRONG.

Well again, this is my perspective. Over the years I have come to see that in a given situation, once the host of choices is infused, it always works opposite to its purpose. Infact, even before we are old enough to understand their significance, we get surrounded by choices. Only difference is that as a child normally someone else chooses for you and as you grow up, you are supposed to make your own mature choices. Let us take an example of little kids in primary school whose parents want them to excel at studies and also be all-rounders. So, there comes up a host of choices – sports, IQ classes, music, dance, elocution, painting, etc. The innocent impressionable mind is subject to a lot of things that his/her parents bring forth as choices. It is good to have A hobby, whereas it is not a great idea to be Jack Of All, Master Of None and compromise on academics and get so exhausted by the end of the day, that the so called Play Time becomes non-existent. Then at various stages of life, options keep hovering around them in the form of school, extra-curricular activities, toys, clothes, friends, food, etc. So from a very early age, the mind is attuned to choose among alternatives and always look for different options.

Imagine a boy, fresh out of school with an extraordinary academic record of more than 90% (worthy enough of praise). He is very keen to pursue his talent and his hobby of writing and thinks he would really excel at it. And whoosh sweep in the preferences, notions and nuances of the intelligent experienced minds (or so we think). Suddenly everyone who is even remotely linked to the boy’s family will call, give their gyaan, whether seeked or not and lo! The confusion has just managed to increase.

It just goes on and on. Whether it is in picking an optimum career, or its zeroing on the job and the company of your choice. And then comes the huge topic of marriage. And when I say, marriage, I mean the concept of arranged marriage which is largely existent in India. Umm...Don’t even get me started on that one!

My take? Choices just complicate things. So it is definitely not ‘the more the merrier’. Indecisiveness creeps in and creates mayhem and general disruption in the route called LIFE. But my take is of course, just my take. Life’s take is something else altogether. In life we are always faced with more than one ways of reaching our destination. And strangely a person’s personality, thinking, nature and the very existence is judged based on the choices he makes in life.

How I wish that I would end up with a perfectly ideal blend of all that is good to have, arranged like an assortment of tempting offerings in every step of life! Given a choice, I would like it that way. There I go again, given a choice! Situational irony? I am as clueless as YOU…

The more the choices, the more the confusion,
When all is hunky dory, it adds to the commotion
There are opinions flying around in absolutely no unison
It’s the longest route for finding the best solution
When all you would hope for is just a perfect fusion!!!!