Wednesday, July 9, 2008

A Dreamy Analysis…

When I think of dreams I drift back to the Roald Dahl classic that I read as a child – The BFG – Big Friendly Giant who was a Dream Catcher by profession. He caught dreams that manifested in the Misty Dream Country and blew them through trumpet like pipe into the bedrooms of children, while they were asleep. What a wonderful fantasy – so mystical and yet so innocent.

The BFG also used to make sure that he bottled up the blotchy nightmares in caves far away so they would not affect the little kids. Which makes me wonder, if those bottles start exploding and finding their way out to reach the civilization as we grow older? Or is it just a figment of our imagination?

So what is the power of dreams?

My friends say I see funny dreams – some of them can be written as film and drama stories and sold to directors for moolah. Strangely, I distinctly remember most of my dreams – both good and bad. They are Technicolor, have a lot of action, adventure, special effects, heroism, people, emotions and technology! The range of subjects on which I dream are enormous - wars, celebrations, trains, galaxies, deaths, cliffs, sea, sharks, children, fire, bomb blasts, running, havelis, monsters, deserts, rock concerts, safaris, gardens, rains, skiing and horses! And what not! Sometimes they are futuristic, sometimes awe-inspiring, sometimes heartening and most times amusing and plain funny! There are times when it feels like a Sanjay Leela Bhansali or Suraj Barjatya magnum opus. If I start with giving a sneak peek into the content of these dreams – its sure to fill up volumes…so I shall save you guys the torture :)

But it’s truly fascinating to decipher dreams and analyze the meaning behind them. Then there are disturbing dreams as well – when you wake up from them and wish you had never slept…never dreamt those. But then if life would become sugary sweet seen through rose tinted glasses, we would always miss the spice.

I have often thought whether there is a full-stop to dreams or even a semi colon for that matter. Infact I took this discussion up lately with a couple of friends and they also had interesting insights to share. I always used to feel that we should not limit our imagination or ambition by our dreams. Dreaming big is good – like they say...aim for the stars, so that you reach the treetop. I have seen many dreamy eyed people in this city of Mumbai. There are huge success stories to boast of – about people with no money and magnificent dreams making it big. Dream is the end, the means of which is work – sometimes hard work and sometimes smart work.

So is it right to build castles in air? I think not. There have also been instances of people who harbor dearest of dreams in their heart and when they cannot be fulfilled – they get shattered – their castles in air come tumbling down their ears and are sometimes beyond repair – and then nothing else in the world is as gratifying as that ONE dream, since they are so emotionally attached to it.

Its not a pessimistic view, it’s a realistic scenario. To resurrect and rise from the ashes like a phoenix is another human wonder that happens. But there are extreme cases when it takes ages for that to happen, or at times, to others dismay, never happens. Then What? Is it worthwhile to have lofty dreams in those starry eyes? Maybe yes, if we are 10 year olds. But the fact is, we are not. And the people that we are, the life that we have, its sometimes imperative to dream attainable dreams, rather than chasing mirages that were never yours. Atleast that way, we are closer and more committed to our goals and if it doesn’t happen, we can pick up another dream and move on.

Maybe I am drawing a contradictory analogy to what I said earlier about a dream having no boundary and now I am mentioning about an attainable dream which in itself is an irony. What is the best thing to do? Maybe BFG would have an answer…

Sunday, June 29, 2008

Mumbai Monsoons..!

I had written this lil verse 3 years ago on a rainy day...blogging was nascent then so just thought of publishing it now to set the mood right for a beautiful monsoon. The ideas and thoughts were just embryonic then as compared to now...but the SPIRIT remains the same!

The rain comes down in torrential showers,
The steely clouds kiss the mountaintops
A brisk wind blows gustily to freshen up the air,
As I set out for another damp damp day.

Those earthy puddles of dirty water,
Splashing out, then refilling by the rain,
The restless gray sea rushes to meet the land
And splashes saline sprinklers on one and all…

That delightful vada-pav stand at the roadside,
Quickly devoured with cups of hot cuttings,
Another refill, the stomach is yearning,
As the masses wait forever for the slow traffic to budge

A brief respite… and people hurry out,
The trees however spill dollops of water,
They act as the rain gods in absentia…
As I skip through puddles dripping and shivering

The children are so happy, another holiday!
The office-goers lament and trudge on with their day,
The rain gods smile benignly,
As I rue about my makeover from a kid to an adult

Come what may…knee deep waters or wind fallen trees
None can obstruct people’s errands and routine
And so truly the spirit of Mumbai never fails
Life moves on…sandstorms or rains!

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Summers - In the summer time, when the weather is fine!

When I was a child, around 15-20 days of my summer holidays used to be spent at my maternal grandparents house at Mahesana - a small town which is couple of hours drive from Gujarat's commercial capital of Ahmedabad. It had become in my definition my native place. This time, when mom mentioned the visit again to meet my nani ' Baa' as I fondly call her - I jumped at the idea!

That is when I began reminiscing about my childhood days....
The days were characterized by melodious kirtans sung by Baa, plucking variety of flowers from our backyard garden(juhi, mogra, champa, chameli,gulaab, gulbaas, etc.), devouring fatty meals and lots of mithai, playing cricket with my cousins ( all 4 boys and me the only neglected girl who used to do fielding in some rare corner or was sent to get the ball from some neighbour's home!), playing hide-n-seek and actually getting lost in the enormous 3 floor pushtaini haveli (that my grandparents later sold off), watering the plants in the garden and using the hose on each other in the evenings, eating raw mango & kalakhatta golaas, lying on mattresses at night in the dhaaba (terrace in Gujarati) and reciting tables from 13-30 in front of nanaji and watching larger than life dreams about the future through glistening eyes by watching the starry sky and arguing about non-existent planets and invisible UFO's until the soft breeze drifts us all to sleep....

What a phase this was! Abundance of innocence, no hassles, hang-ups, money issues, friendships, fights, hardships, deadlines, egos, relationships, falling in love, falling out of love --- nothing~
All that one would do is eat, sleep, play and enjoy life. No wonder childhood always beckons most of us throughout our lives!

Its funny how in this small town half a bucket of water for bath seems perfectly fine and drinking water from the matka or a fan in working condition is a welcome delight even in the scorching heat!

People are so unusually caring that such kind of behaviour can actually stifle a person's privacy if in a metro city. For instance, I went to buy a pesticide for some gardening tasks for our backyard. An eccentric old shop-owner frowned at me when I asked for it and asked suscipiciously - 'What do you want it for?' I was like...'Gardening..(duh)' He goes ' Ok then take it for gardening beta...dont you dare drink it or think of committing suicide or I will follow you home and tell your family!!!' I really did not know whether to feel angry or touched. The homes are small but the hearts are big in these little towns :) Touche!

I believe it set the tone right for me to explore my childhood and connect to my roots so wonderfully and effortlessly!